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Very curious! Make me a believer. Hi, so first off, I have to ask that my post please not be flagged! Ok it's just rude!!
Do you know what would be great? If the person whom you are in a long term relationship with, is the same in al the good ways and doesn't turn out to be crazy or mean later on. I mean it's ok to change. We all change. As we grow older, we learn new things, try new things, become different. But seriously, I'm not going to change...become crazy or mean, so why should you get to!! Just sayin.
I do not want a daddy thank you. I do not want a boy thank you.
I have read through many of the posts made by woman and so many seem so lovely. And I have read through many of the men's posts and so many seem so wonderful. But I am confused. Many I have read are ones that have been up for a long time. Is it because when a man emails a woman with genuine interest and they share pics, someone is disapointed! Is that really what finding love is about? Or you see the pic and the person turns out to mean, or odd and they are very attractive. I notice that people are looking for the same things...love, patience, kindness, understanding, acceptance, honesty, attraction, shared interests. So then when you find someone who fits all but one of what your looking for, do you shine them on because of that one flaw? Or because of two flaws? Or three or twenty flaws? What about your flaws? You accept their one or three flaws then you expect them the deal with your moodiness or your hostility that developed because of your resentment against them because you accepted them and their flaws. I'm serious!! I know that no one wants to hear that something is wrong with them or that they are wrong. But don't you get it, the fact of it is, you need to hear it. So you can fix or change or alter it. And that's what I'm getting at...people want all these things from someone else then they ask you not to expect the to change anything about themselves. And sometimes, just every once in awhile, someone says to you that they never want you to change. You see, a good relationship is about sacrifice!! From both people! It takes more than one person to make a relationship so there for it takes more than one person to make a relationship work and be managable. All sacrifice means, is step outside your box, try something new, different. If you are single, and you are the same way you have always been, than isn't it possible that that I might work if you tried something else. Changed something about you. Well, I know that I have learned a lot in life by trying different things. When something doesn't work, fix it, try something different, or use something new. There is nothing wrong with change. It's how we grow.
So ya, I can post my picture here and give a description of how I look and who I am. But that doesn't mean much does it. Because the fact of it is, no matter how good I look or how great I sound, you don't know me at all and I don't know you at all. No matter how honest I am or you are, there wil always be things left out, things un said due to fear. We are all afraid.
I'm 5', 130 lbs, tan skin, dark long hair, big brown eyes, nice smile, attractive, college educated, employed, parent of 2 boys who are 9-12. Own my own auto, house in Eugene, love to camp, hike, fish, cook, take care of my fam, laugh, listen, quiet, shy, out going, social, communicator, hard worker, funny, smart, need an equal, my kids are my life.
I have always been a romantic. The one who still believes in fairy tales and true love. But I am loosing my faith in this world. I cannot handle seeing and hearing the hatred all around. Everywhere I go and everywhere I look. I am so physiy I'll by the way people treat others. I don't want to sit and dwell on it or even talk about it. I do not sit and think about it. That isn't my point. I just want someone in my life who sees the light in the darkness. Who can see the good in others and honestly believe it is there and it is real. I used to be that way. I could see the live in every walk of life. I could see through the pain in peoples eyes and hearts. I miss that.